Sunday, September 18, 2005

heh...as O levels...comes in...n i m about to embark on new paths and new chapters in my life...i cant help but think about the last 10 months r so...since i set foot into City Harvest Church....

u noe for me...since my primary school days....i hav like been this hot tempered freak hus like super prone to getting into fights....den i used to be a trigger happy swearing machine...i tell u like...like one sentence 2 vulgar words....den i used to steal...even thou i never realli got caught...n even if i did i still got away with it...yup...up to sec school...i stopped stealing but i still fought...still sweared...n got myself into quite abit of trouble...

i remembered tht there was once i went with my parents to some healing thing at GMC...den i saw the guy lay hands on the sick and they all fell on the floor....for once in my life i didnt hear the power of God but actually saw it....it left an impression but after 2 or 3 days later....it passed n back to everyday life....at tht time i attended TAMC with my parents... i felt the service to be extremely dry....the sermons were boring to me...i struggled to stay awake n at times would wish to miss church altogether...once i tried the youth program...but den the ppl were so hostile and not warm at all...i was thinking...if i want to go to church....y cant it be like tht healing meeting tht i went to....

so this sort of dragging myself to church lasted till mid of sec 3 which was last year....i kinda got sick of it all...under pretence tht i was going to church with my frens...i actually went out myself to either study or to just catch a movie....at times...i tot it was quite pointless n aimless....i had not gone to church like for 3 months....to me it was better off den going to TAMC...den one day out of the blue...in one of our conversations...this church subject came out....so jared and i agreed tht we would go church hopping...so i tink we went to 2 or 3 churches....before we breaked for exams...for me...the churches were much better....but i still wanted to feel the power i had felt during tht veri meeting....my cousin at tht point of time tried to persuade me to go with them to this place in the far west...but out of fear of hostile ppl n also the fact tht i had no company...i came up with some excuse each time....but as i got to see them less n less cus of their saturday commitments....i also got alittle curious bout the church...

|cowpoo| 6:39 PM|

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